Breeze – Mindfulness of Breath – Some conversations on International Self Compassion Day-2025

International Self Compassion Day -2025-(July 19-2025)

In Kristen Neff’s book on Self Compassion she lists Common Humanity, Self Kindness and Mindfulness as three components of Self Compassion and also gives interesting exercises on being average which brings to focus the competitive nature of our culture, how the pressure to be better erodes the fun in just being. 

So, as part of this exercise of being average, I went for a walk by the Humber-Etiune Brule -Old Mills, had a cheese tuna sandwich at Caldense Symington and a small coffee at the Tim Hortons on Bloor with three trusted fellows-spiritual fellow travelers. 

We are just average persons in Greater Toronto Area-GTA, getting along in our lives. Each relationship has taught me some nuances of day to day life, enriched me and helped develop a deeper understanding of our shared journeys.  

In this blog will tell of some lists, some talks across the world and my experiences in interrogating the Satipathana and Anapanasati Suttas which have helped further my mindfulness practices.

Common Humanity: Our shared walks in North Africa

As part of intentionally reaching out, had a talk with a fellow traveler, a South Asian who has lived and worked in the Arab world. We had spent almost a decade together in Tripoli, walked together during the 40 year celebrations of Gaddafi’s regime and then witnessed first hand on the ground the revolt in the 42nd year. I remember the day he and another fellow traveler sat together for a dinner which I had imagined would happen soon, after the intense fighting would stop. Our journeys together helped me see the way he has imbibed humour to lessen the pain of forced internal migration from his homeland Kashmir. Navigating the medical world in different continents have helped him see what is possible, where we have dilemmas and how to negotiate with persons in power.

Self Esteem: Readings by the Humber, Lake Ontario, Rouge and the Zoo

Sketch Studies, Mindfulness walks in Nature and Discussions in Cafes

Does one matter? Am I a 5/10 or more when it comes to having a positive effect or less? (10 being yes I matter). These questions by Neff made me recall some walks I had in the zoos of Tripoli in 2009 when I told my sons about Thoreau’s Walden pond and the principles of Objectivity, Simplicity, Self Reliance which guided  Transcendentalists like Emerson, Thoreau, Alcott (author of Little Women).

Doing readings together, keeping notes, and engaging in a reading group, imbibing the lessons into a reading journal are part of my family legacy, passed on to me by my parents, grandparents and uncles, aunts, sisters. Following this, it gave me immense satisfaction to read about my son’s recent visit to Walden pond where Thoreau stayed in the mid 19th century.

This morning, on International Self Compassion day- went through some works of Kiran Desai-Inheritance of Loss, and reflected upon the relationship between the Judge (Jemmubhai), and the cook, who asks for punishment for his wrong doings, how his orphaned granddaughter Sai tries to intervene. Set in the backdrop of the Gorkhaland movement, the novel follows the stories of Biju, the cook’s son as a worker in the restaurants of New York City and his interactions with other Indian diaspora from different continents. The Indians of East Africa have a different way of relating to India, USA. 

Going by the reading journals and discussion groups I have had over the decades I would give myself a rating of over 5/10 in whether I mattered to my groups, family in this aspect.

Mindfulness: The Breath as a Gateway to Satipaṭṭhāna and Ānāpānasati

We Are of a Tribe by Alberto Rios

The dream of sky is indifferent to all this,
Impervious to borders, fences, reservations.

The sky is our common home, the place we all live.
There we are in the world together.

The dream of sky requires no passport.
Blue will not be fenced. Blue will not be a crime.

Look up. Stay awhile. Let your breathing slow.
Know that you always have a home here

Was guided by an experienced practitioner on how the breath is the gateway to both Satipaṭṭhāna and Ānāpānasati the intention is different. In Satipaṭṭhāna there is mindfulness with letting go , non attachment and the structure which gives  grounding at each level. The sutta has seven spokes at levels of body (anatomy, elements, death), feelings, thoughts and principles. Ānāpānasati moves from long and short breath awareness to whole body awareness and calming.

Exploring Local Histories-The Portuguese community in GTA-commemorated at High Park

Other practices I use to ground are 

(a) Metta- thank each part – from the other, thank the short breath, send loving kindness to any painful sore part of body

 (b) Mentors- invoking the spirit of Individual mentors . Invoking the spirit of the Sangha

( c) Mending my ways- the amends steps of 12 step spirituality.

Reference

Neff, K. (2019). The yin and yang of self-compassion: Cultivating kindness and strength in the face of difficulty. Sounds True.

Download Worksheet on Self Compassion

EARLIER PERSPECTIVES

EXPLORING COMMON HUMANITY- THROUGH READING JOURNALS

2025-JUNE- INHERITANCE OF LOSS

2014-FEB : REMEMBERING CHARLIE ANDREWS 

12th February is the feast of Charlie Andrews, the Christian missionary and close friend of Mahatma Gandhi. Viewed by some scholars as the alter-ego of the Mahatma, C F Andrews went on to do things in Fiji and Caribbean which Gandhi himself could not do physically. In Richard Attenborough’s “Gandhi” there is a scene in which when CF Andrews comes to bid goodbye, Gandhi says-..(paraphrased) –Between us there are no goodbyes. You will always be with me in my heart.

2009-FEB- REMEMBERING ANSAL ADAMS

“I believe in beauty. I believe in stones and water, air and soil, people and their future and their fate.” This was the personal philosophy of the great American photographer Ansel Adams whose birthday falls on February 20. He developed the zone system, a way to determine proper exposure and adjust the contrast of the final print. 

Understanding the Lizard Within: Insights from Father’s Day

Around Father’s day,(2025) I went for lunch with a mentor, fellow traveler and confidante who has taught me many things over the years.

One of the things he helped me conceptualize is the “Lizard”.

 “ I have a lizard in myself, which tells me that these programs of recovery, therapy, 12 steps, meditation and gratitudes are not going to work for me. The lizard takes me to dark places, which sabotage my safety, serenity and self-worth.”

Mevame Again

We sat at Mevame again (Rutherford) and discussed things which we would not discuss in a recovery meeting in front of others.

Many years ago, a senior fellow told me that though the fellowships are supposed to be anonymous, within six months, people know many things, so one should be discrete as to what one shares.

Father’s Day walk

We went through the intergenerational issues, as he recalled his earlier years in Toronto, having been put in grade 3 instead of grade 5 where he should have been. The next year, he got a double promotion, as he did well academically.

He showed me a panorama of what life was in Toronto- Don Mills area in the 1950s/60s when he went to school. We got to current issues of his wife’s trip to Australia, how the lives of his daughters, the way their marriages have evolved has affected him and his sense of family.

Life in America-(From Number our Days- Barbara Myerhoff)

We discussed Number of Days, written by the cultural anthropologist Barbara Myerhoff, who studied a community of elderly Jews in the mid 1970s. This pioneering ethnographic work is an intimate chronicle of the lives of elderly Jewish Immigrants in Venice, California, particularly those associated with the Israel Levin Senior Center. Her work weaves storytelling, anthropology, and reflexivity to illuminate how identity, memory, and community persist and adapt in the face of aging, loss, and marginalization.

Application

In my work with marginalized and minoritized communities, I have worked with elderly persons from the Jewish community, South Asian and Asian elderly persons and also their caregivers. Caregiver burnout is an often neglected aspect which hurts the family dynamic.

2017- Spring walks- Port Credit-Lake Ontario- Earlier Perspectives – https://prashantbhatt.com/2017/03/22/every-object-has-a-story/

Every Object has a story- the work of Sara Angelucci-

Creative solutions: Needle and Thread

God’s greatest invention

A little needle

Humble, bright and quick,

A gift to Eve

To make us clothes,

She sews and takes us

From animals to people.

In Paradise what are we?

Pure nature, without inventions.

Not yet born,

Until a needle

Makes us into me.

“These are a tailor’s words. The poem, you see, I wrote in Jewish. That is because Jewish is the right language for the sweatshop. Not Hebrew- too elevated. Not French- too refined. Not Polist-too robust. Only Jewish could express a tailor’s thoughts in America, working with his needle. (Page 69,70; Number our Days, Barbara Myerhoff)

Remembering Father’s Day Walk-Malta 2012

This conversation in Rutherford – Maple, Greater Toronto Area reminded me of a walk with a senior of the Maltese Indian community in 2012. He graciously invited us for lunch, recalled his family and community journeys from India, East Africa to Southern Europe and how things have evolved over the decades. Every journey has its surprises. After a session of Yoga at the Community centre at San Gjwann, we went for lunch at Valletta and then he took us for a walk through a cemetery where some of the community elders have been laid to rest.

Malta-2012

Readings and Reflections-Connection with Culture and Community:

Kariya Park-Mississauga-June 2025

A Teacher’s Prayer

The boy who was once demoted to grade 3, eventually became a teacher, and influenced many lives. Apart from teaching many about the steps of recovery, he also gave me the gift of a Teacher’s Prayer.

“As a teacher, I can influence the lives of students. So I have to take extra care. One remark can do a lot of damage to a teenager already struggling with self-esteem and confidence issues,” he told me as we ended our lunch meeting.

We will meet again.

You can download Lizard Worksheet here- 

Pearls of Mindfulness (Satipatthana)

Satipatthana Insights and Integration into Counselling

Thus the dhammas mentioned in this satipaṭṭhāna are not “mental objects”, but are applied to whatever becomes an object of the mind or of any other sense door during contemplation.

Analayo, Satipatthana, The Direct Path to Realization

In the previous blog we had explored the Johari Window. to examine Prejudices and Presumptions. In this blog we will discuss Mindfulness (Sati-patthana), Countertransference (Classical Freudian and Refined-Heimann Racker view) with some examples in Therapy sessions -Couples in conflict and an exhausted caregiver of an elderly aunt.

I use my own experiences with mentors in Mindfulness and life experiences and how they were processed through psychotherapy to illustrate some points. In the end there are downloadable worksheets on PEARLS of Mindfulness with exercises which will help orientation.

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For the first quarter of 2025, I formally studied Satipatthana meditation under the guidance of Mentors from Barre Centre of Buddhist Studies (BCBS) based on commentaries and talks of Bhikhu Analayo. 

2024-Feb-Barre Centre of Buddhist Studies- Central Massachusetts, Awareness of Elements in Morning Walking Meditations

  After finishing my graduate studies in Psychotherapy, I had choices to deepen my understanding of the many approaches which we were introduced to in this program. Being from the medical world, I was initially attracted to the structure of CBT- Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, and studied the Third Generation CBT approaches – based on Acceptance and Commitment, and Dialectical Behavioural therapy.

I still use these tools , but my path was more towards understanding existential issues – and hence the first guided retreat I did was at BCBS on the theme of Death- Maranasati (Nikki Mirgafori-2024-February). Before that I had been guided on Metta Meditation-Living Kindness (Kevin Griffin- Spring 2024). After that I have done silent retreats at Barre and Manresa-Pickering

Background of Satipatthana 

The seven spokes of Satipatthana- Mindfulness Foundation Meditation- 

Satipatthana is a compound of Sati-Mindfulness and either Patthana- foundation or upatthana- presence.

The spokes of Satipatthana are based on

1- Body – 

       Spoke 1- Anatomy

       Spoke 2- Elements

       Spoke 3- Death

note – having been in medicine since 1985, first starting anatomy in cadaver labs of Maulana Azad medical college, Delhi -1985, and then studying Radiological Anatomy – Seth G Medical – KEM Mumbai ( 1993), I have an intricate knowledge of different body tissues, and how they look in different imaging modalities. Having studied and practiced Manual Osteopathic medicine in Canada, have revised and updated my concepts of Functional Anatomy.

2- Feelings 

       Spoke 4 – Feelings

3- Mind/Consciousness

       Spoke 5- Thoughts-

4- Principles (Dhammas)


      Spoke 6- Hindrances

      Spoke 7- Awakening factors

PEARL Application on Transference and Countertransference

PEARL- Protective Embodied Attentive Reflective Liberating- Analayo,2015

One of my motivations to formally study the Satipatthana was to see for points of transference and countertransference, and to use Sati (Mindfulness) to strengthen the Therapeutic Alliances 

Freud wrote in 1910:

“We must recognize that the doctor too has his unconscious, which can interfere with the analytic work… We must not neglect to reckon with this countertransference…”

Transference refers to a client redirecting emotions from another person or experience (people, places, principles, things, thoughts, emotions, feelings, memories, sensations) to the counselor . Countertransference refers to a counsellor redirecting emotions from the past, unto a client.

Freud’s classical view of countertransference as a hindrance, a contamination of the therapeutic process due to unresolved unconscious conflicts has been challenged by Theorists like Melanie Heimann (On Counter-transference, 1950) and Heinrich Racker (1957, 1968)in which the understanding and utilization of countertransference was redefined.

Freudian Classical View

Countertransference is obstacle

To be avoided, own work to be done

Heimann/Racker Refined View

Countertransference is a valuable clinical tool

Illuminate patient’s unconscious Communication

Viewed as a part of mutual field

Counsellor is a participant-observer

Eg- Classical view can help us Examine our Biases and Blindspots

Refined View can use our own reactions to Empathize, identify dynamically with the client’s internal object relations

Classical view -self disclosure to be avoided

Refined View : Self disclosure- if it is beneficial to client- is encouraged

Can be used to develop alliance

For example

Client( C) – My aunt is struggling with dementia and it is affecting my mother

Therapist(PB)- Countertransference-Classical– Remembering his own parents, how they passed before becoming old, father in accident, mother widowed at age 54. View it as a hindrance and have processed it in therapy myself 

(One of the few times I have cried in a therapy session was when I discussed being called to the hospital to identify my father’s body..

 Experience– Men -especially South Asian Men- Cry Alone 

Strength- Through Therapy I finally made that list of traumas which I have never talked about with anyone 

Hope- through these open safe alliances was able to process how these affect my life and relationships)- so do I bring this up – Classical view does not encourage self disclosure

 Countertransference-Refined- Does view the way relationships affect each other and in a spirit of openness can tune in to the day to day life of a caregiver, what it is like to open up about one’s self care as a caregiver, the advantages and disadvantages of Taking a Pause

Energy field as- Participant Observer– see the tone of the client, as she shares about these struggles, watch for any points when the client hesitates, see for topics which open up the flow of discussion.

Eg- C- It is difficult to talk to my mother as she faces a lot of stress

     PB- How has your day been affected by these conversations? (Invite/Open and then Monitor-Modify the Therapeutic alliance)

PB- Participant Observer- Self Disclosure mode

          The rhythm of my family life changed forever after my father suddenly passed away. How does the rhythm of your day change after you discuss about identity and belonging with your mother? What routines of grounding have you imbibed? For example- after my father passed- I was mindful of what programs I would watch on television, as one day I found my mother and sister weeping in front of the television as old Hindi movie songs which my father used to sing were being aired.

     C- Well- (pausing to think) – it is painful to talk about this with my mother, she doesn’t really know what to do, and the medical carers have told there is really no point in trying to revise her diet, though she has gained a lot of weight.

  PB (Participant Observer mode) – feels the shift in energy- as we bring the discussion back into how client feels, rather than how her mother feels, how the organized medical care system is different from family carers.

Debrief of Invite-Open-Monitor-Modify

Principle- Therapist as temporary Attachment Figure

Invite- To share about conversations and their effects

Open- Field of Alliance to the energy of those shared moments with mother, shared moments in therapy, and integrating them into one’s patterns.

Monitor- The tone, energy, hesitation, flow

   Tone- she paused, there was a deeper slower flow

   Energy- maintained neutral tone- was mindful of body language, non verbal cues

     Hesitation- let that moment hold- (did not give any further cues)

     Flow- Integration of awareness of nuances of flow when she talks to persons, topics

PEARL and Communication on Conflicts

Using Sati-Mindfulness and my knowledge of Countertransference as a tool to develop therapeutic alliance, made me use the Feelings tone (Neutral, Unpleasant, Pleasant) to balance the energy when the partners would get involved in the attack-defend mode. Instead of jumping into summarizing what one has heard, what the partner hears-how the feel about it, we agreed to take these moments of shared alliance as protective embodied moments of healing in a neutral balanced tone.

Application in session

Counsellor (PB)- So how has the past week been

Wife (W)- It has been up and down, at times I was angry, at times afraid to express

Husband (H)- We are working on the tools you suggested, and recording and re-hearing our discussions to make us both more aware of how we sound, how the other person reacts.

Classical Counselling View- would be to summarize the thoughts, feelings, sensations, emotions, memories and try to gather moments of connection, compassion, clarity.

Mindfulness – Modified Application- Pause and feel the energy, watch for unpleasant, pleasant and neutral moments and create a spectrum of Ease to Unease, see how communication does not turn into a contest into who is right, who is wrong.

PEARL Summary

Protective-  Contest is diminished

Embodied- Alliances are strengthened

Attentive- to Calm

Receptive- Absorb shared moments

Liberating- De-link from Drama cycles

 Reflection Questions

1- Are you aware of your body, the sore points, your posture, gait, and how do you ground yourself? How will you apply this to impermanence, fading, cessation and letting go?

2- Freudian Classical view takes countertransference as a hindrance. How does the refined view differ? Have you experienced or discussed this with a therapist?

3- The Mindfulness – Satipatthana view will observer the hindrances and awakening factors. How was the classical CBT method- (summarizing, reflection of feelings, creating SMART-specific measurable achievable realistic timed goals) different from the Mindfulness approach- of acceptance, observation and letting go? Did you notice the difference in the couples therapy- where we collaborated rather than contested?

SUMMARY

Through the lens of Sati-patthana, I reflect upon my experiences as a counsellor and see how Countertransference and Therapeutic Alliances can be refined. 

             Being guided by experienced practitioners helped me develop nuances. The energy field of a therapeutic alliance can explore and examine, express and expand personal and interpersonal themes. 

            In Couples therapy the use of Neutral Feelings tone helps. In Individual Therapy of persons caring for elderly, I used countertransference and self disclosure to open up the flow of sessions. The seven spokes of Satipatthana can be applied in many creative ways as they interact with each other. 

            In helping map these journeys, examine their territories through the lens of psychotherapy and mindfulness, we try to be more wholesome.

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RESOURCES

You can download the worksheets on PEARL Application and also give a call to try out this approach to building Personal Family alliances and Therapeutic Alliances

References

Anālayo, B. (2015). Understanding and practicing the Satipaṭṭhāna-sutta. Buddhist foundations of mindfulness, 71-88.

Heimann, P. (1956). Dynamics of transference interpretations. The International Journal of Psycho-Analysis, 37, 303.

Holmes, J. (2014). Countertransference before Heimann: An historical exploration. Journal of the American Psychoanalytic Association, 62(4), 603-629.

Mindfulness Labyrinths

Satipatthana is a compound of Mindfulness (Sati) and either Patthana- Foundation or Upatthana – Presence. This compound can be interpreted as – Sati-patthana – Foundation of Mindfulness or Sati-upatthana- Presence of Mindfulness

Analayo-2006, 2022

Walks and Mindfulness: Niagara on the Lake-March 2025 : The 12 steps are one of the widely known spiritual paths introduced by Bill W and Dr Bob in the 1930s. They evolved from the Oxford Group. The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous was written around 1939. The traditions were evolved in the 1940s as the AA organization and movement grew and they imbibed the lessons from a group -The Washingtonians who had existed in 19th century

Establishing a practice of Mindfulness can start with listing the ways one is not mindful. A five minute break at the end of every three hours can be a way to check in and see where we are in the practice of a particular tool.

Labyrinths in a Retreat

Having practiced the 12 steps with a fellowship, I was eager to impress the priest about my knowledge and application of the steps, spirituality, and work with a sponsor ( a person who knows one’s story, will hold us accountable to the 12 step path, and agree to be our sponsor).

She listened to the different aspects of the program, what brought me here, how I progressed, what pitfalls and roadblocks I had observed and where I see myself in the coming months in this path. 

Practice one tool a day, and check in where you are in the awareness and application of that tool. This suggestion by the priest helped me strengthen my program and be more mindful of the way I do the program, how I spread the message and what I need to do less of.

Earlier Perspectives

Dialogues- how they arise, develop and affect.

           Silence before a conversation can be a starting point to being mindful. Be aware of the energy, the feeling (ease or unease- inside, in the other , in between) and the biological way in which the voice is generated. 

A coach once taught me the way the voice is coming from either the throat or the head or the throat or even stomach and the difference in way it comes out if one is aware from where we are speaking. It is more high pitched from higher areas and deeper if from lower areas.

He also mimicked two US Presidents and showed the difference between the folksy- I am a regular guy like you tone of one and the preacher voice of another. After he demonstrated that, I heard the speeches of both Presidents again and realized how true his observation was.

Walks in North Africa- Libya-2016 January- Establishing a Mindfulness practice can be a creative enterprise which helps us connect with energies of other times and places. In this walk in the Tripoli Medina area of North Africa, we see and connect with the energies of sea farers of the centuries gone by

Worksheet

Common Day to Day themes to be mindful of

NoThemeMPComment
15 minute break
5 minute break
33During the break I realized that my breathing, posture, gait needed to be better. I stretched by back and straightened the way I sit
23 hour slots
3 hour slotsDuring the past three hours, I was mindful of the way I drive, did I let some drivers enter the freeway before me, did I overspeed. On getting to my place of work, or study- I first checked in on the common spaces and did some service for the good of the organization, institution (or did not bother and just rushed into my own work space)
3Labyrinths
The bigger picture and detours
LabyrinthsThe bigger picture of where I am headed, what ways I can go off track. In the example above, I wrote of doing a retreat in guidance of a priest. She was my spiritual mentor. It helped me align my program a bit deeper and also made me see the primary purpose , my relationship with a higher power and the fellowship in a deeper way.
4SummaryWhat new insightAny change
SummaryThrough this exercise, I also saw the way voice is generated, how high and low pitch are related to anatomy. In addition, a coach helped me see the energy generated by two famous public speakers- one a folksy regular guy, the other a preacher voice
Write a summary of what this exercise in mindfulness meant to you
5Follow-up
Follow-upLaying the Foundation of Mindfulness I became more present to the persons I am speaking to . As a follow-up I made a note of times when I held space for them to open up, and the times when I had an urge to give them feedback and let it be.
Write one step you implemented in the past week.Discuss with a person with whom you practiceWhat new insights were gained.

M- Mastery- how good am I on a scale of 0 to 5 in implementing this tool (5 being best, 0-not existent)

P- Pleasure- how much pleasure or sense of achievement did I get in implementing this tool 

 (5 great pleasure/sense of achievement 0-non existent) (Burns & Arens, 2020)

References

Anālayo, B., Medvedev, O.N., Singh, N.N. et al. Effects of Mindful Practices on Terror of Mortality: A Randomized Controlled Trial. Mindfulness 13, 3043–3057 (2022). https://doi.org/10.1007/s12671-022-01967-8

Satipaṭṭhāna: The Direct Path to Realization

Burns, D. D., & Arens, B. (2020). Feeling Great. Findaway Voices.

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